Things are looking upward in the last couple days and I hope it does become a fabulous October for each and every forum member and for the Silk Road site in general, we have an honest overall positive vibe here and a very good thing going for us at this moment. I very much appreciate the fact I have Silk Road to go to as a source for much desired drugs that in the past have been obtainable to me in the past and I think many overlook that fact and take for grant the fact that we have this site with us for now and tend to dwell on the few issues that do pop up in a flamboyant way overshadowing the fact that the majority of us wouldn't even have access to such things in real life. I'm going to remain the best moderator I can for the forums to my abilities but It's tends to get overwhelming having the entire forum on my back, I do appreciate the other mods that do help, jowblow2 esp helps me out greatly in the cases he steps into and seems to me to do as good a job as I can when he does post and chronicpain does what he can for the site, but Kind bud disappeared the second day after being upgraded to mod and DigitalAlch is a great moderator but he has personally medical conditions IRL that doesnt allow him to put in the time and effort as much as he likes, so it puts the forums on my back and the lack of compensation for the position from Silk Road and the community have greatly gone ignored placing a high amount of responsibility to me to do the best I can for the community which I adore and want to do the best I can for but was recently really slowed down my time to take care of the situation in my assigned areas of moderation. I just cant read every post by myself anymore and and provide answers to every single question. nomad bloodbath